Baby Huntertard milestone
Well tonight my little huntard Willowwynd got to 11 and tamed her first pet – a cat (of course). I wanted to name it Pussywillow (snerk) but that was taken. So I settled for naming it after my real life cat Sasparilla. Its the same looking Cat as old faithful Leopold was which made me happy-ish.
But I’m homesick, and I miss my Cynnialuna.
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It’s quiet… too quiet
We made some baby toons on another server because apparently, despite tearing our own beating hearts from our chest and wailing in despair, we are complete addicts.
So I’m playing with a Nightelf Hunter – had to run up to the dranei starting spot because my better 2/3 had to be dranei. I kinda suck at being a hunter but its something different at least.
It’s so quiet though. I can’t quite get used to it. Asgara signs on and I automatically start typing /g and a salutation for the Queen OTU&OLA*. It’s pitiful really.
There are so many people I miss.
Ugh – enough whining – guess I’ll go get nubhunter some leather.
EDIT: I need to remember not to tab out with a baby toon… or else I come back to it being chewed on…
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*Queen of the Universe and Outlying Areas of course
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And so it goes…
I stayed up till 3:30am this morning, reading over old Mostly WoW posts. It was somewhat cathartic really. I also realized that Oaks is right, this isn’t the same guild that we fell in love with 2 years ago. It changed a lot in that time, despite our best efforts for that not to happen. I think the biggest change came with Wrath, looking back.
Oh well, give it another day or so and we will be the Evil Empire repressing their progression. And in a month we will be forgotten… a distant memory. That’s how these things go… I spent the first 2 months after DB left defending him, and most people really haven’t much of a clue about the real reasons we left. I just wish things could have gone differently, but I will repress my natural tendency towards angry, bitter rhetoric (so much easier to be angry than heartbroken). It doesn’t do anyone any good – least of all me.
It will be a very long time before I join another guild… and even longer before I put the kind of investment, both in time and emotion, that I put into Jaded Souls anywhere else.
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Whither he goest I go….
So here are words I didn’t actually expect to ever say… We quit Jaded Souls tonight.
Wow… didn’t start sobbing hysterically again…. progress has been made.
Two years of pouring heart and soul into Jaded Souls… Nearly a year of running it with Oaks… and how quickly it is all gone.
I have been throwing Asgara-worthy temper-tantrums for days now because I knew that this was coming. Oaks was just sick and tired of it all. The ugly attitudes, the sekrit meetings of people that really were about as secret as my freckles, the lack of progression and the fact that no matter what we tried there was always someone unhappy. It’s rather ironic in some ways that the very things that we have striven so hard to preserve and protect are the very things that have been breaking things apart. I tried to talk him out of it, I tried to come up with yet more solutions to our problems… but today his last straw was bent and he was done. The fact that someone actually was able to make him as angry as he was this weekend should have clued me in. (He is infuriatingly unflappable) I would have just taken things over completely on my own… but he was going to leave regardless and that settled it. I play this to be with him.
I can’t believe how very much this hurts. My heart breaks for the dear dear friends we leave behind to pick up the pieces.. I’ve been the one standing there with the dustpan and duct tape trying to fix it – I know how damn hard it is. But in the end, I love my husband more than I love my guild, and definitely more than I love this game. We desperately need some happiness in our life, and I hope that sometime soon WOW can be a source of happiness for us again.
And so together we go… but as always, we aren’t alone. We have our trusty 3rd.. our Asgara. Wayn, Bru and Sugar were not far behind.
Hopefully those that I have always held dear as friends can understand and forgive us for leaving them.
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Last Train out of Dalaran…
Wow, not only are you getting a post by ME. You’re getting a rehash of some past obsessing on guilds, friends, moves, and fears for the future. Two years ago to the week, we /gquit Clan of the Dragon and Oaks et al drug me kicking and screaming, (and crying and whining), into a real live raiding guild, Jaded Souls. And now I find myself re-obsessing over my lack of social skills, my lack of ability to deal well with change. Change is what happens when your back is turned and you are tripping around picking herbs and ignoring everyone else ‘cuz you’re not really into the social scene lately. Change is what you can claim plausible deniability about.
What has changed you might ask? Well, what hasn’t is my answer. JS has suffered through DB and Ty leaving to find a better playing environment. JS has weathered “The Tribe,” (consisting of our “A” team), leaving… though they seems to have imploded soon after, which I find wickedly satisfying. JS is now at a major crossroads and it seems to be hunkered down at the junction not knowing which way to go. Tempers are flaring, things are being said, people are quitting. One of those people was me. Oak left, Cyn left, and I followed. I followed them in and I’ll follow them out.
I find myself strangely teary eyed over my latest confession… I don’t really care. Okay, I do care, I just can’t find the motivation to really care. I’ve been backing off more and more lately. Not raiding as much, not playing as much, not even getting on Asgara much when I do play. I’ve been futzing around on alts that no one really knows.
I don’t know what will happen to the guild next, Valtome is the new leader and I wish them well. I know Val is a great person and will make an awesome leader. My sincerest good wishes to them all. ( love you Nige and Katra … will miss you two most of all)
I don’t know what will happen to me next. Not sure what anyone’s plans are. I know I want to take a break from raiding. I just don’t find the pleasure in it anymore. Hell, bout all I do lately is get on my DK and level my herbing and inscription while I explore. Mindless, responsibility-less, socializing-less time sink.
I’m not on game… had to get off for a while. No one is on IM … think I’m going to pace around the apartment crying off and on for awhile. Tears, great cathartic.
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The Jump
The Jump
As a guild master I often hear people say they wished this that or the other thing was different with the guild. I think many people don’t think I hear these things, or that I just ignore them. This is not true. I hear them all. Of course this brings to mind the old addage “You can please some of the people some of the time, but you can’t please all of the people all of the time.” This I know quite well.
Recently we had a group of some of our top raiders mass quit the guild to form their own 10 man raiding guild. This came after a fairly quick build-up of members recently and complaints of “too many DPS!” and “We can’t get into raids!” from many people. I shut down DPS recruitment on our website, I noted each healing and tanking class recruitment link that we needed strong healers and tanks and I frantically changed our raid schedules and ran unscheduled raids when the scheduled runs were full to try to accommodate everyone interested in raiding. It wasn’t enough.
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Status report of the vauge kind
Things have been rather up and down with the Guild lately. ICC has rolled out and we seem to be stuck progression-wise on the icky Rotgut and Fester. Our guild sign-ups fluctuate wildly – one night we have 38 and yet another we’re scraping around for more people. It’s a little frustrating really. We’ve bumped up the number of 10-man ICC and 25 TOC runs to try to improve our gear score and see if that will help but really it seems to be a coordination issue. Progression-wise we are pretty far up on the server – I think last I looked we were 3rd Alliance side. It just feels like we are up against a block… part of me doesn’t mind it in the least – it reminds me of our SSC days of hammering for months on a single boss. The rest of me gets a headache just thinking about it.
I REALLY want to see us finish Ulduar too. It’s been hanging over our head too long. I just want to see it done. I want to see the hard end too though I’m starting to think that will never happen. I’m glad I at least got to see Yogg down on 10-man… but I’m GREEDY -I want it on 25 and hard mode too!
What I really need is a vacation from Real Life, one that would let me spend unholy amounts of time playing WOW and not thinking about anything else… preferably with a maid and a cook.
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AWESOMESAUCE!
http://www.wow.com/2009/12/09/the-single-greatest-thing-that-has-ever-happened-ingame/
what more is there to say? Except I am SO trying that!
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Mostly Neglected and Jaded Souls kicking ass on progression
I think that Mostly Neglected should be the new name of this blog since we have barely been updating. Between real life and running the guild it seems that there is never quite enough time and this gets shoved to the end of the list… not that we are famously well-read or anything ;P
In Jaded Souls news – we have been kicking butt with progression kills – finished TOC 25 and Ulduar 10 – done quite a few hardmode’s and took down the first couple bosses in ICC. It feels like things are finally clicking and that the guild has recovered from “the summer of discontent” and all the changes that have happened.
One of the things that has helped us along the most is the fact that we made very good choices when promoting our new officer corps. They have shown time and time again that our trust has not been misplaced. They make decisions when needed, support our policies and give us their valuable input time and time again.
In general WOW news – the new content (what little I’ve seen of it – 10man ICC last night for a bit and the Pit on 5man) is amazing and challenging. The visuals are just awesome 
AND there is a piratey battle on flying ships with Rocketpacks that is just AWESOME.
My inner pet-whore has been very satisfied lately too. Sand & Chlorii gave me the adorable Panda-Monk for my birthday and Bliz has been handing out pets like candy. There was Mr. Chilly for switching to Battlenet (which you had to do regardless- that is a rant for another day) the Onyxia whelpling for their 5 year anniversary and just yesterday – a core-hound puppy for having an authenticator! YAAAAAY!! I refuse to count how many pets I have now… I’m guessing I’m pushing 100.
Anyway – Oaks and I are off for some WinterVeil Shopping! I will try to be better about updating and hopefully will have a more complete post regaling our recent week of 8 or 9 progression kills shortly.
Hmm -does anyone know where I can buy Asgara a Gnome?
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Sad tidings and musings
Jaded Souls lost one of its own this weekend when Lielisia, boomkin and wife of Balorr, lost her battle with cancer. It has been several months since she has been with us, but Balorr has been getting on at night – looking for distraction. She was an amazing person, loving mother, wonderful friend and one heck of a raider. It seems hard to believe that just a year ago we were teasing her and Balorr about their coming baby, jokes about a dwarf and a night elf’s baby and raiding with a bottle.
Thinking about all this makes me realize what a strange dichotomy exists when you play a game online with other people. It’s a game and we always remember that its just a game. But a the same time – the friendships and connections that you form are real. These people become your friends, true friends – regardless of whether you see them in the flesh or not. You spend hours talking to them, working towards common goals and playing this game that you all love. You come to care about people. My heart is breaking for Balorr, and his children and family. I’ve seen him in real life half a dozen times (he and Oaks were coworkers) but that doesn’t make the depth of the loss I feel any less. Lielisia was one of ours, we shared triumphs and wipes together, shared long whispered conversations and witty reparte in guild chat. That love is real, those connections are real even if they take place in a virtual world.
I came to appreciate how much my online family meant to me earlier this year when I experienced devastating loss in my real life. While I was going through some of the worst times in my life, they were there for me. Whether I was signing on for a quick few moments to distract myself, or understanding when I canceled my raids at the last minute – they were there. Their care and compassion meant the world to me. I know that Balorr knows how much his online family is thinking of him, praying for him, and is with him in spirit even though, as usual, their body may be far away. I hope he can draw some small amount of comfort from the knowledge that we are with him.
And we say this is only game.
The Feathery Fold of Jaded Souls
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